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Bret Primack's avatar

All of us carry a mental list — a quiet inventory of what could have been. Moments that linger like ghosts in the corridors of memory. These are the fork-in-the-road incidents: the job we didn’t take, the phone call we never made, the person we let go, the dream we put on hold. Each one could’ve sent our lives down a completely different path.

But what governs those pivotal moments? Is it fate — some cosmic design unfolding with eerie precision? Or is it our own choices, shaped by fear, hope, instinct, or chance? Maybe it’s both. Maybe fate lays out the options, but it’s our decisions that give them weight. The truth is, we never really know what might’ve happened. All we can do is live with the echoes, learn from them, and keep walking forward — one choice at a time.

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Todd Coolman's avatar

Eloquently stated, my friend.

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NJH's avatar

Whoa—that’s some deep s—t. Of course, life’s twists and turns are unpredictable—and as the late Sydney Harris once wrote, ‘our ignorance is our impetus.’

But your writing of Dex, the jam sessions, the clubs, the songs, are eloquent and moving.

I’ve got my favourite songs from the albums you listed, perhaps share some of yours with the readers?

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Todd Coolman's avatar

Thank you for your kind comments. I think the reason we called them “albums” was because the entirety of the selections endeavored to tell a story or be thematic. It makes it difficult for me to single out favorites, but perhaps that’s just me.

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NJH's avatar

Fair enough.

Some of the songs swing more, but chacun a son gout, and appreciate your comments.

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Lawrence Silverman's avatar

I learn so my when I read about your experiences. Reminds me to always make the most of every playing opportunity because you never know where it will lead to next! I always tell me students to always play like someone will only get to hear you play one time and that’s how they remember you! As always, thanks for sharing!

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Todd Coolman's avatar

Play like it’s the last time you will ever have the privilege of doing so.

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Lawrence Silverman's avatar

I always do.😁🎶🎶❤️

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Gerry Mullikane's avatar

In spite of what might have been on that night you're "One of our men in Jazz", Todd.

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Todd Coolman's avatar

Hey Gerry, yes, that was quite a night!

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Arndt Meiler.'s avatar

I heard Dexter Gordon a few times during his exil in Europe. He was playing with locals, but it probably didn’t affect him. He sounded as on the records as I remember. A true musician devoted to music of the highest standard. Long tall Dexter!

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Todd Coolman's avatar

Yes, Dexter sounded great in any context.

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Michael Patrick O’Leary's avatar

I had the great privilege of seeing Dexter Gordon play at Club 43, Shude Hill, Manchester in 1966.

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Todd Coolman's avatar

Marvelous. He must have sounded great at that time.

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Michael Patrick O’Leary's avatar

We were very close. We made eye contact.

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Eric Brewington's avatar

Thank you for sharing this Todd. Wonderful story and your message of acceptance is timely for me. Much appreciated.

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Todd Coolman's avatar

Glad to see that I can be helpful to some, Eric.

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Bill Poole's avatar

Wild & interesting story w/ huge range of emotions, questions- but glad for ya to culminate w/ a happy ending.

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Todd Coolman's avatar

It’s all part of the business. I am more fortunate than I could have ever imagined.

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